{where} are we ?

i wish i knew why i feel this

helpless...

sad...

ultimately disconnected . . . sinking feeling.

i hope it disappears soon . . . i want nothing more than to smile.

i was made {for you}

you see the smile that's on my mouth

it's hiding the words that don't come out
and all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
they don't know my head is a mess
no, they don't know who I really am
and they don't know what
i've been through like you do
and I was made for you...

a {new} favorite

i have discovered a new favorite movie this week

it is called mary & max... and it happens to be done in claymation...

the story is drawn from a true story about a young girl in australia and a man in new york {who has aspergers syndrome}...these two characters become pen pals and the story goes on from there..it's not really a movie for children...but it reminds me of the innocence of youth, the harshness of society, and the things we take for granted in our lives.

i am not really offering a critic of the movie, but i just thought i would share a new found favorite.

p.s. this movie makes me want a pen pal... {there is something so simple and beautiful about a handwritten letter}

i look to my {eskimo} friend

"tiredness fuels empty thoughts

i find myself disposed
brightness fills empty space
in search of inspiration
harder now with higher speed
washing in on top of me
so i look to my eskimo friend
i look to my eskimo friend
i look to my eskimo friend
when I'm down, down, down"

last week i built an igloo with my brother

i laid inside and stared at the sky

and felt like a carefree child again...

with the newest layer of snow my igloo has changed shape

yet i still want to crawl inside and play

today the snow did not get in my way of being {semi} productive...in fact i found it beautiful and serene as i walked through campus.

i have not been inspired to post the last week or so... thus my absence.

i was however enjoying my last few days of break...which included many birthdays to celebrate including my own... {eek 24!} ... i am ok with getting older. i appreciate the things i have learned in my short life and look forward to my {hopefully} many years to come

{maybe} someday

maybe someday

when I look back I'll be able to say
you didn't mean to be cruel
somebody hurt you too

paper art

phase one of my paper art installation is complete...now i just have to wait till i make another online purchase and hope for more packing paper...

far from home

dreaming of a place far far away from here...

not sure i will be able to think of anything else for the next four months

{may 29 is too far away}

my {somebody} to lean on

if we all {need} somebody to lean on, then i guess i can say that i have {at least} one of those somebodies in my life... right now i am thinking of a certain one. my sister.

i love my {little} sister.

she is always there for me when i need someone to talk to and confide in.

i am thankful for her endless support and love...

it's nice to know that i have someone to lean on when times get tough.

i am super excited to see her tomorrow {monday}