a people person

do

you

ever

feel

like

you

really

need

to be

around

people?

well i usually don't feel that way, but right now, in a moment where i don't have anyone around to talk to...

i feel really lonely.

bottled up

"She held her grief behind her eyes like an ocean & when she leaned forward into the day it spilled onto the floor & she wiped at it quickly with her foot & pretended no one had seen"

i am no stranger to holding my emotions in

as a child i had plenty of practice

i thought i was {somewhat} over that phase

it's interesting how feelings sneak up on you when you least expect them to.

i just want to {hide}

every semester i find myself thinking and saying the same things...

"i'm sick of school"... "i don't have motivation"..."i can't wait to have a break"...{insert negative thought here}

it seems silly that i am doing what i "love", yet i complain all the time about it...

i wish i could maintain a positive attitude at all times, but it gets hard when i am sleeping less than three hours a night...

these are supposed to be the {best times of my life} right?

sometimes i have to remind myself that what i am doing will be worth it...

and i'm sure it will be...

but right now i just want to hide.